Sunday, 17 November 2013


You know what moment when the elephant in the room suddenly becomes addressed?

Like in episode one, season two of How I Met Your Mother. Marshall and Lily had broken up, Marshall plans to go down to the hotel room she's "staying" in (If you've not been watching it, its 7 years old! Where have you been?!) and Ted (Voiced by Bob Saget) says "56 days. That's how long it took me to get right about here: BECAUSE YOU'RE PATHETIC!"

Marshall shoots Ted the most disgusted look (Great acting by Jason Segel and Josh Radnor), Ted immediately lays the score down to Marshall.

I lost count of the number of times I've watched it and each time, it still hits me like a truck.

I've never lost Alyson Hannigan, but it just reminds me of the kind of spineless jellyfish I become after every blown relationship.


I shouldn't feel like this.

I can feel however I want to feel.

Should is a bad word where feelings are concerned.

I just...

I have nothing. Not nothing nothing but...

I'm jobless. Absolutely zip in terms of career prospects. I also have less than nothing when it comes to relationship prospects.


Why can't I just be fucking happy?